This deployment has helped me so much, spiritually, already. It has helped me see how much we truly do take for granted, in the civilian life.
From eating good, hot meals, to having the liberty to drive your own car, to even being able to use the restroom somewhere inside a building, that’s only a few steps away.
So, I challenge every reader of this, to evaluate your next couple of days to see how much you really take for granted, from simple daily tasks, to your friendships or being able to see family.
I know these next 11 months, God will use me to draw me closer to Him, but to also make an impact in one of the biggest, hidden mission fields in our country.
I love this and am ready! It took me having to sacrifice everything I took for granted to have a perspective shift, but I love it!
I truly believe I am to follow footsteps similar to that of Joshua from the bible, especially since he was a soldier, and so am I.
This post is more of a challenge. Try not to take your days for granted, to every little detail, and go out there and change this world. We’re all called to change the world, but in ways God has planned for us.
I’ve got more brewing out of what God is showing me, to be posted later. I love how much He is pouring into me, to write this! Till later, I’ll keep you guys posted on my deployment as well, with what I am allowed to share. Some things I can’t share while there, for operational security.
Fear. Insecurity. Low self-esteem. Lack of confidence. Pessimistic. Down in attitude and on one’s self. Worried. Scared. Tired. Prideful. Infatuated. Naive. Annoying. Always tearing down one’s self from mistakes made. Emptiness. Loneliness. Acting with a front. Hiding under a mask. Mean. Hateful. Broken. Lusting over one of the opposite sex. Jealous. Sorrowful. Envious of others.
All of these have been struggles in my life at one point or another. I constantly tore myself down for all of these, and felt far too imperfect to win the heart of anyone. Whether winning the heart of anyone meant friendship or relationships. I felt I wasn’t good enough for anyone, including God.
I always dreamed of finding the right girl that would like me for who I am, and always thought I was far too lame for any girl, or too much of a nerdy/geeky loser. As far from manly as it sounds to some, I always was trying to find the “one”, and wanted to have someone who thought they would see that I was one of the nicest people in the world (or I thought I was one of the nicest).
All of that is now past. It was how I tried to define myself. One huge thing I lacked though, was the knowledge of God’s love for us and the full knowledge of the victory Jesus won for us at the cross. Without Him, is basically living a blind walk. Without Him, we lack vision and full direction.
So don’t be afraid to show Christ’s unconditional love to people. You’d be surprised who really needs it and how much God can use it to impact their lives.
That is probably the simplest way to flow the Great Commission mentioned in both Matthew 28 and Mark 16, to truly show them Christ by how we actually put what we believe, into action.
Through that love that I was shown, He made me whole again. I was completely broken, and a mess. Yet, He made me complete and whole and free. And He will send my woman of God one day, but not yet. I know she is the most beautiful girl in the world though and I’ve already got so much to tell her. And I will definitely give this Agape love, to her. All in all, we don’t need to focus so much on finding love or feeling good enough, because He makes us whole, and He is our ultimate lover. When we focus on Him instead of the opposite sex so much, that’s when everything will fall into place in His timing, not ours.
For fair warning, this will be kinda long, so bare with me. I grew up in church most of my life. My father was at different points, a youth pastor and a pastor, before. I always slept in church at a younger age because I thought it was boring. I even struggled when I was in elementary and middle school because I hated it. As years went, I became more of someone who sat and complained, and was just getting lazy. It carried on into my early high school years, and I thought that it was enough to get by in life happy, for me. Eventually my laziness backfired to where I accidentally asked for info on the Army National Guard, and signed a few weeks later. As I graduated high school, I just got lazier and pushed my limits of what I could get away with. Within my first year of college, I didn’t give into partying and getting drunk, but I got into a relationship to where I was constantly giving myself away to her, to the point to where it was all I wanted to do, and lost feelings for anything to do with the relationship, but that. Then I started to try and live a life without God and tried to disprove Him and His existence. I was so consumed in pleasure that I was numb to the pain I was causing myself from running away from God. Then it took one simple night of taking a girl I was about to date, at the time, home. While driving her home, I fell asleep at the wheel, and drifted off into the medium. She pulled my hand to wake me up, and I woke up. I then tried to get back on the road, and as soon as I did, my car jack-knifed sideways into rolling on the interstate at 4 in the morning, going 65 mph. As soon as the car finished rolling, I was surprised by the fact that I didn’t feel any pain from flipping. I walked out with two small cuts, and that was it, despite all the windows of the window, being shattered, and my 4runner being totaled to where the EMTs said it looked like I should’ve been badly injured or dead I couldn’t believe I walked out fine. Well a turn of events over the days following, God spoke to me and said, “Do you believe in me now? It’s not your time to go yet. I’ve got some huge plans for you!”. He gave me a second chance at life and even gave me a clean slate to start with, in my walk with Him. He told me to start over from what I learned from church and to let Himself show me who He is, through Jesus and the victory won at the cross. I’ve grown so much since that summer, that I have realized a calling to speak and lead worship wherever I am lead. I helped lead worship at my old youth group for 5 years. I’m currently deployed with my National Guard unit to Afghanistan, but am currently at Mobilization training in Washington, until we get overseas in December. I will be gone from home and everything and everyone I know, for a year on this deployment. I will be going into ministry full-time, wherever God leads me, when He wants me to in His timing, after I get back. I have been gaining enough knowledge by listening to God and letting Him speak through me that I know that He wants me to help change this broken world and this fallen culture. So that’s what I’m going to do, somehow, when God shows me more of how. Had I not been given a second chance at life, I wouldn’t have had the amazing opportunity to see the world and to see God change lives through me and many others. This is my story of my great second chance. Jeremiah 29:11 says that God has plans for us, therefore, He’s not going to lead us astray. He’s got plans for you, no matter where you are in life and how you feel about life or anything else. Fear was my biggest problem, when it comes to even following Christ, because I knew it’s not all going to fine and dandy all the time, after you give your life to Him. But scripture says 211 different times that we shouldnt fear. Joshua 1:9 tells us that we shouldn’t fear or be discouraged and that He will be with us wherever we go. We shouldn’t fear as much, because He takes care of us when we trust in Him. So no matter how bad life may seem, and no matter how hard it may seem that you won’t get a second chance, don’t be afraid and know God has plans for each of us, and will give us second chances when we trust Him to.
Where to start? I honestly do not know. So here goes what I feel has been kept inside of me for far too long.
Ever since I was 8, I always had an interest in the opposite sex. Back then, I crushed on a girl for quite some time. As I started to grow older and went through my middle school years, that interest grew, but in hopes of getting my first girlfriend. As I hit those years, I started to feel like a shy, loser, who was too lame to get any girl to like me. As I hit high school, I finally had my first girlfriend and it all went from there. The relationship didn’t last long, but it slowly started a build-up in my life. As I went through high school, I had one more girlfriend, then none, for a good bit, with several exceptions of me on the verge of dating several girls, all at different times, over that time period, which all added to the build-up.
Then hit my year of college I spent at UNA, only to try and get her in trouble later. I was on the verge of somewhat dating another girl, but we never did. Then as the second semester rolled, I ended up dating someone from back home. One thing led to another, and I gave my virginity to her and gave myself away, to her, for more times than I could count.
Over the time I dated her, I was so consumed with the enjoyment of being deep in sin, while proclaiming to follow Christ, that it led me to a dark place and eventually running from God and trying to disprove Him, while giving the girl I was with, the best I could while treating her better than I treated myself. Months later, she ended it with me, and I found another that I tried to call my lover. As far from masculine as it sounds, I always dreamed of finding the right one that I felt would be perfect for me and would be my best friend to walk with in life and in relationships with God, together, with them liking me for who I am. So I pushed this relationship, thinking she was “the one”, but that led to more of the build-up. Thankfully, I never gave myself to her like the one before her, but I did hurt her, emotionally.
At the end of that, I went on tour got a week, on a ministry called Words of Warfare. It helped changed my life and proved to me that God is real, here, and has always been here. I actually heard Mattie Montgomery speak a sermon at Church 29:11 in Mount Olive, and it changed my mindset and gave me a new slate, with me flipping in a car the next day and facing death without being harmed.
Since then, I went to a place called The Ramp and became radically changed, or so I thought. The build-up that started to many years before, stayed there and didn’t leave nor stop it’s momentum in my life.
As October of last year rolled on, I met someone new. We ended up dating 6 months, and at times I thought she was “the one” before I was deceived and struck with a low-blow of her true feelings. The build-up got way worse after that and became apparent. The next part, only a few know of. After that relationship, I was so desperate and broken and hurt, that I gave myself away to someone else that I never even dated. As time passed, I talked to them still, occasionally, thus leading me to giving myself to her, a again, a couple months ago.
That, ever since, was the ultimate blow in the build-up. Yes, I know, through all of this, I neglected the fact that the one I truly had to give myself and life to, was Christ. The build-up, along with a heavy, violent (emotion-wise) war with myself over flesh and lust and imperfection and feeling terrible, every time I did, led to what I’m about to say.
What I’ve been calling the build-up, is one filled with sin and pain. The build-up, is the build-up of being so broken, to the point as to knowing I was broken, but didn’t feel the breaks. Lately, I’ve had my mind on my deployment that is near, and the fact that my life will be on the line daily, and have been scared of not feeling whole again or ever finding who God has for me.
I’ve felt a wreck, a monster, constantly out on a search to find the one. I’ve felt imperfection run so deep, that I became numb to it, and succumbed to fear and letting things, including sin and myself, get the best of me.
I’ve been full of knowledge of what it means to be a true Christ follower, but never truly followed. I’m writing this, because I felt I needed to be completely real and remove my mask, and break off these chains finally. From this point on, my heart is truly focused on God and only Him, knowing that I can’t do things on my own or in my own timing, but with Him and in His timing. Whoever my future wife may be, I want to be the man of God I’m called to be, before I meet her, so that there is no sense of rush or brokenness, just passion for God and Christ’s finished work that gave us victory. That’s why I haven’t dated anyone recently or have been not talking to girls as much as I used to. I have stopped focusing on girls, and focusing on God.
Just know, I am declaring this post as a victory of finally letting it out, to be free of it. Thank you to anyone and everyone who has ever been praying for me or have prayed for me. This man is no longer broken and am finally at peace. I love you all, whether I know you like a best friend, or not. My Abba, Father loves everyone, so I shall as well, towards everyone, regardless of who they are.
So my time here in Cali is winding down. Last weekend at home in bama helped me alot. I can say I’m truly blessed to have the most amazing friends and family I could ask for. And I love how God speaks to me through me. Its weird I know. Alot of the times, my voice has been taking on the voice of God lately, letting his words come out instead of mine, and it feels weird because I don’t ever even think of what came out of my mouth until after it came out. I’m starting to see God move in several peoples’ lives, even if they don’t see it themselves, and it makes me stoked. You’d be amazing how much change you make when you plant even the smallest seed of hope and love within a person’s heart. This is more of a small rant, but I love writing out my thoughts. Alot of whats been spoken to me lately, which is what I’m working on myself, is the power of our tongues. The authority of our tongues can do so much as to determine our health or literally calm a storm or raise the dead or even heal others. We just never use them. They say life is what you make of it, which is true, especially when you’re speaking life into you instead of negativity and death.
I’m ever so ready to be home. I’ve grown ever more here, spiritually, and its amazing. I’ve seen some amazing parts of the country and met some amazing people that I’ll never forget, but I’m honestly wishing I was back home right now. I miss the sleepless nights of staying at Blake’s house, eating all of his food, sleeping on his couch, playing mortal kombat with him and watching random tv shows with him, I miss hanging with Steven, randomly riding around everywhere, playing xbox360 till we fell asleep, playing basketball at peoples’ houses, to even going to eat at random places, I miss hanging with Tom and talking about stuff from video games, to music, to God, I miss my sister and us randomly always going up to food world to get 25 cent cokes. Its crazy how much you miss all of these little things when you’ve been without them for so long. Man, to think of it, I’m so blessed, that some cannot comprehend it if I were to tell them. Only a week till I’m home for memorial day, then two weeks after, I’ll done here for good :)
Its been a bit since I’ve last been on here. I forreal need to quit procrastinating. Its weird going back and looking at my old posts and just see how much I’ve changed in the past two years, spiritually, mentally, and emotionally.
So I’m sure one would question why I finally changed my url on here on facebook and my twitter username. The reasoning behind it all goes back to the events of this past weekend at The Ramp. The best way to describe it is just life changing. If you’ve never been there, it will change your life and wreck your world. It will awaken you spiritually. It will ignite an unquenchable flame within your heart like never before. All of that has happened within me. The whole weekend, God was just constantly pouring into me, like crazy. Then, when I went through the fire tunnel, is where I was changed forever. It sent a fire within my life that will never leave. A sense and hunger to constantly want to talk to and about God, all the time. A hunger for a stronger relationship with God and to gain more intimacy with him. I’m finally a new creation, fully on fire for God. After all this time, I can finally say I’ve just begun a new journey in my life of truly following wherever God takes me. The whole xdarkxpriestx90 & xthexdarkxpriestx put a bit of darkness in my mind. It seems complicated, but to make this simple, the meaning of dark priest came from when my friends I hung with called me the priest since I was known as the “christian” kid or the “jesus freak”. What I didn’t notice about myself is that all of my life, I’ve never ever been anywhere near comfortable around anyone who was of the world, which automatically set me apart from the world. So the dark part came because I listened to heavy music, which some referred to it as dark music. Plus I was a backyard wrestler called The Dark Priest, which was totally inspired by WWE’s The Undertaker. So I was still calling myself a child of dark, instead of light, though I never noticed it. After this weekend, I felt led that I had to rid myself of that tag and name. So while thinking and praying on what to put, I came up with xflamexofxhopex. I chose that because I want to be a flame of hope to my generation. I want to be a flame that ignites this world that will cause the burning ones to arise with me and turn this nation and world over to God.
Thats all I can pretty much say. So much has went on in the past 8 or 9 months and are still going on right now. I don’t even know where to start. Last summer, a guy named Alan Bailey, known to some as PA, came into my life and helped ignite a complete change in my life. He invited me to see Mattie Montgomery speak at a church in Mt. Olive, and my drastic change just started right there. That night, God was like “Everything you have ever known about me, is completely wrong. Erase what you thought of me, completely, and start on a clean slate tonight.” So that was what I did. It makes me sound not very mature spiritually because of it being not too long ago, but just continue reading what all I am about to say. From that night on out, God started me over, showing me his true face. Well that process was helped alot by being a part of the Words of Ware Tour crew, which the tour helped change my life and gave me alot of brothers and sisters in Christ. Then the next step happened when I went to The Ramp for the first time. I was completely overwhelmed. I’d never seen so many people on fire for God at one time. It just amazed me. Then, speeding up, I went another time, which helped me. But right around the beginning of September, my best friend Frog and I started getting involved with multiple churches outside of God’s Garage. I don’t think that at the time, we realized what exactly was going to come out of it all. From us doing that, it put a spiritual mentor in my life that I had been in need of most of my life. He out of nowhere came into my life, helped pray over my family, and helped show me more of who God truly is. Its just insane to think that just 8 months ago, my flame for my love for God was just about the size of a speck of dust as compared to now. This isn’t my testimony though. If I went into that, it would probably result in my hands being more sore than ever. But, it’s just amazing how much God is doing lately. This year is the year of harvest and the 3rd and final great awakening is upon us and happening right now, which blows my mind. God has given our generation the tools to change this world completely and fall in love with the true God and who He truly is, which I’m going to step up and be a leader to help that happen. I will no longer ask or complain about change needing to happen, I’m going to be the change.
It’s been awhile. When I mean awhile, I mean awhileeeeeeeeeeeee. So much has changed since my last post and I shall reiterate on that in the next post that I’ll write later today or tomorrow. God has given me so much knowledge since then and continues to give me more knowledge of who he truly is, even as he did that tonight and blew my mind :) goodbye for now, I’ll update later today or tomorrow, for sure :)
Its been too long since I have written something on here. So much has been happening lately, good, and even bad. If any of my followers haven’t noticed, Amy and I broke up like a week or two ago, and we only dated for about 3 weeks. Things seemed to have went so well, but when I wanted to break it off, for the time being, because I felt her and I both needed to focus more on God and learn to put him before relationships, and yet, it just all fell through. It hurt her, which is lame, since thats not trying to hurt her, its trying to set up the relationship for success. But I have to live with it. She wants to completely forget me and not talk to me ever again, in any shape or form, for it. So, thats completely over and done with. Now, on to the good. My old youth group, God’s Garage, asked me to come back to help lead worship the next few weeks until I get my car and move down to Mobile, since I need it. So technically, thats two huge doors opening for me. But another, though I do not know exactly what it is, is that I know my calling is for sure something in music. People who have known me long enough can even see that. And since I have a voice, I am going to have to use it for God, and only God, not for me. With all that coming to place, Satan has been trying to attack me like crazy, trying to make me fall, but I will not let him, ever, and am standing my ground. I will write more later. Later days kiddos.
I realize now I was definitely born in the wrong time period. I was on urban dictionary and the definition for hxc popped up. It disappoints me what the hardcore scene has come to. Back in the day, hardcore was a bunch of kids who were dissed by everyone else but found a sense of brotherhood with…
dude, thats just how things are nowadays. I wish things were like they are at WoW, when you compare to that show to the usual local shows. Especially, something I have noticed recently with the whole hardcore “scene” is what you stated, that people are trying to be tougher than each other or more brutal. Its either those two, or some certain people I have noticed, try to start drama with one of the most influential musicians in the scene, just because that musician plays folk, and they feel that he is “ruining” the whole “scene”, which is lame as can be. Nowadays, its not so much just a hardcore scene. Its now just a musical scene, mainly the genres of hardcore, pop/punk, and folk. I mean, I still go to shows because of the whole brotherhood thing, because it used to be a place for me to go to get away from certain home situations, just because I know I’d be with friends, and enjoying myself. It should be a scene full of people who just have music as a passion. Thats where a scene fully flourishes, when you have people who’s hearts are in it. To me, music is my outlet of expression. Its where I’ll let some feelings out, that won’t even come out of me in words. I just wish that it would be like that at shows again. Seems like people are just making music to seem tougher than others or just to earn money or even just to make it big. It should be more about just making it because you love it.
It seems as if that’s all I have ever been within the past few years. For so long, I thought I was on the right path, but I was wrong, the whole time. I recently realized that, and gained a new hunger that I have not ever known until now. It is a new hunger for God. Strangely, the Mattie Montgomery spoken album helped me out alot. It made me realize some things. Speaking with one of the youth leaders of my church, helped a great deal as well. Plus, her making me and the rest of the college guys, lead the high school boys bible study, helps me out on that as well. Not to mention, starting to lead worship, as of summertime. Its one of two muiscal endeavors that are soon working out for me. The other one, happens to be with my friends Bryan Massey and Paul Wilson. Bryan is a drummer, and has been a lead vocalist for the band He Came With Swords, now known as The Bering Strait, but with a completely different line-up, strangely. I have a good feeling about all of this. Its time to start making epic music again! I’m stokedd :D
Well, just when I think the confusion is gone away, it is back yet again. Oh how I despise thee. I despise that my mind cannot come to a complete conclusion on it all. Ever since the break, it kinda tore me apart. As of lately, I’ve gotten completely over it, and have come to terms that I do deserve wayy better. But the fact is, I don’t know what to do from here. I’m still lost on the ground that I thought I had gained on finding my desperate whoever. Sometimes, I guess I just want a relationship, and a fairytale ending, no matter how weird it may sound coming from me. It’d just be nice to have someone that will accept me for who I am, and wouldn’t diss on my nerdyness. Someone that believes in God at least. Someone that would not only be my girlfriend, but my best friend as well. Someone to walk in this journey we call life, together. Someone who doesn’t mind that I’m nerdy, nor a cook in the military (though I hate it), nor that I am a Christian. I guess it’ll only just be in dreams. I don’t even know why I rant on like this. Its not like anyone is going to read this, and it help any, at all. I’m just ready for something new in my life, whatever it may be, whether its already been there, or not. I puzzle myself and confuse myself much more than most individuals would. I will admit that the chill life is pretty good. I can totally agree with the song, Hakuna Matatta, though when I say no worries, I either sound Jamaican or like a pot head haha. I don’t know, I’m just ready for a change in my life, whatever it may be. Just ready for things to become more revealed to my ever wandering mind, and my ever so weary heart.
I found it!!!!!! Its one of the last songs I’m choosing to write using the rhyming method haha.
"Words Left Unspoken"
Here lies a shattered memory with not enough to fix, Yet, I have so much cause all of my feelings to mix, There are so many words left unspoken, Jus watch as I lie here broken.
Falling into pieces, now you’ll hear my thesis. Your love is my cure, your intentions seemed so pure.
So many words are left unspoken, So many words that can make us unbroken, Why do they escape my mouth? Instead, I just seem to run down south.
The inevitable past is what seems to hold me back, To have faith in it all, is what I seem to lack, This time seems to fly by so fast, I wonder how long we’ll be here. When it all starts to fall, I feel that you may be near.
So many words are left unspoken, So many words that can make us unbroken, Why do they escape my mouth? Instead, I just seem to run down south.
I’m struggling to get these words out, But I think my opportunities are running out, Just give me one more chance to prove you wrong, For I know how I’ve felt all along.
So many words are left unspaken, So many words that can make us unbroken, Why do they escape my mouth? Instead, I just seem to run down south. We run down south, Its all going down south, Without you.
for some reason, I cant find the song I was gonna post, so I’ll put this other recent one till I find the piece of paper that has my other song on it. not one of the best songs I’ve written, but I’m still working on this one. this is just a rough draft.
I’m laying here all alone at night, Sitting here wishing I could just hold you tight, The situation is eating away at me, What the heck do you see in me?
I Try so hard to breathe again, Your heart just won’t let me in, I just want to please you, And this is all I want to do, To feel your lips touch mine while you’re in my arms, Just all I ever want, is your heart.
Why must this always happen to me? Its just getting harder, can’t you see? You make me feel like no other, I just want to be your lover.
I try so hard to breathe again, Your heart just won’t let me in, I just want to please you, And this is all I want to do, To feel your lips touch mine while you’re in my arms, Just all I ever want, is your heart.
I try so hard to breathe again, Your heart just won’t let in, I just want to please you, This is is all I want to do, With one thing left to say, My bad luck deserves an A. All I ever want is to be with you, All I’ll ever want, is your heart.
I’m stoked for when they come home in the summer & to hear more new stuff that they’ll have for their upcoming full-length :) Other than Count On Me, this is one of my favorites out of all of their songs. The song A Lesson In Semantics by Carridale, the pop/punk band from my hometown thats gonna get somewhere someday, I’m sure of it. They definitely deserve it.
Things are just falling apart, and apparently its not my fault. Gah this freaking sucks so much, but I guess this proves that I might not have been in love. Ah the deception of it all. I just need to do something to take my mind off of all this. Apparently arguing and making me feel like crap triggered the break, let alone she is taking stress from school and alot of physical pain, so I ended up getting that infamous text of her wanting to go on a break. We’ll see where God takes me in this though. I’m already in surrender for him and have been for several years now, but this is apparently making my heart grow closer to him, strangely enough. Or better yet, I need to get on to actually getting my songs recorded of my songs that I’ve written, since I have enough written to make like 10 EPs already…this hurts so much now….. :/
epiccc!!! I’m soo stoked for their new album because of the awesomeness & amazingness in this song!
who is this? i love it
Its War of Ages!!! The band that I’m going with your brother to go see play with As I Lay Dying, Demon Hunter, and Blessthefall! Its one of two released songs off of their new album, Eternal, which is coming out April 13th!! This song is called Collapse! Its pure christian metalcore for you!
Its so sad these past few days, to see what has happened to my little baby cousin, Brennen. His life is literally hanging on by a thread :/ The doctors told my grandmother, tonight, that his brain is swelling and there’s not much more they can do. Its more sad that he happens to be around 6 months old, and has had seizures and strokes, and was even on a breathing machine up until today. Not to mention, the doctors have said he has brain damage. This tears me apart to know all of this, forreal. I just want everyone to please pray for a miracle for baby Brennen, he needs it. His life is in the balance and needs to a huge miracle from God in this one.
Nothing is more aggravating to me than someone else getting credit for your work. It’s a slap in the face, it’s disrespectful and it’s wrong. The worst part is, you can’t show it any attention because then people will just blister you with it out of boredom, but I can’t pretend it doesn’t bother…
Woww, this totally isnt cool dude! Who is it that is doing this?? They’d need to get hit really hard by a car door from a fast moving car, just saying. Incase you’re wondering where I got the car door reference, I got it from the movie, Children of Men. Its a must see.
has definitely consumed me within the past month and a half, in so many aspects, that it is almost non-comprehensible. I think the message yesterday at church was soo true about so many nowadays. Alot of people condemn and despise the worst type of people, and try to stray away from loving them and reaching out to them, though Jesus himself did the opposite of what most Christians do nowadays. He went and wanted to basically hangout with Zacheuss, a tax collector, what was known as one of the worst types of people. That is what we as Christians tend to lose sight of what to do. We’re supposed to love everyone, no matter who they are or what they have done. I’m not saying to go hang out with really bad people and let it consume oneself. Jesus himself would be the guy that would go hang out with people and reach out to them in a bar, as compared to doing so in a church. It makes me think of how I am towards people I dislike, and makes me re-think my approach of people I have grown to dislike. If we continue to do as we want, and go about the same ways with people that we would despise and would think were very horrible people, then we would be putting ourselves into a sinking ship that is sinking really badly. Things like this make me love my church and how God can speak to us through the messages. Just something I definitely needed ad thought I should share. I’ll probably have more to write later. Time for choir practice & then study hall. Later days!
Dude, I know how that goes. But hang in there, trust me. Its extremely worth it when you hang on in the toughest of times. Keep your head up, and you’ll be fine. I expect the worst, and hope for the best, but I’ve learned to stick it out in the toughest times because in the end, things will be amazing! This I know!
Sometimes, a part of me is ready to quit. No matter how much pandering I’ve done.
I know this is a bit late to be reblogging this, but never quit dude! Do what you love to do the most & just go with your heart! If you truly believe in something, never give up on it, even when the going gets tough!
Tonight I’m in the studio finishing up the last little bit of recording on the new tracks. Very excited to get these songs finished. I can’t wait for everyone to have them and analyze them. I don’t think I’ve ever been more proud of my music.
Life has been great lately. Great friends, amazing girl, and doing my best to make good music. Lots of tour coming up. And lots of pitching Carridale to labels and agents to try and take some of this work off my back.
2010 will be a good year.
man, I’m sooo stoked about the new Carridale stuff & hope to see yall get signed to a great record label that will treat yall well!
I have to admit, they are pretty dope though dude.
I don’t like them
i’m gonna have to agree with jerry…the pretzel is like the red headed step child of chex mix
ha yeah, it may be, but i kinda block out the pretzels and focus on the other food items in it. coming from a cook, there are wayyy worse foods to have to eat, that would cause one to dislike pretzels a little less. for example, onions. i despise onions, thanks to cooking school
Warner Bros. has yet give us official word on this, but it looks like Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows parts I and II are going to be released in 3D. I never read these books (start the stone-throwing), but I do think the movies have all been pretty good.
Part I is set for release November 19 and part II should hit theaters July 15, 2011.
Do you think 3D can contribute much to these films, or is this just part of a larger gimmick in the cinema world?
Why in the world is everything going 3D?? I mean seriously, like every single new movie is getting advertised as being in 3D. I mean I have nothing wrong with this, but it should’ve happen like a decade ago.
I think my new thing to do on the weekends is go to either hardcore or pop/punk shows. It seriously never fails. I’m at one like every other weekend. Like this weekend, I’m going to see Winds of Plague, For Today, and Despised Icon in Birmingham Friday. I don’t know if I’ll be at one next week, but I’m for sure going to see my buds in Carridale play in Decatur on the 6th & then see them at the Multiplex in Madison on the 11th. I’m also trying to see Atreyu & The Used play, and also The Devil Wears Prada & Killswitch Engage in Nashville at Rocketown, Set Your Goals & Four Year Strong on Warped Tour, and A Day To Remember, August Burns Red, & Silverstein play in Atlanta two days in a row, and Kutless & Casting Crowns in either Huntsville or Birmingham. This is what I do with my free time, apparently.
It can be a handful at times to say the least. But overall, it’s actually fun. I enjoy my job, mostly because my job is a food service specialist or known to others as cook. A person’s experience in the guard would depend on where they go to RSP drill at, where they go to BCT (Basic) at, where they go to AIT (job training), and how their unit is. Thankfully, my unit is a bit more laid-back, to say the least. If you happen to have asked that, out of interest for it, hit me up on either myspace or facebook. Its an opportunity of a lifetime & one heck a choice for a career.